Level Up! The Return of Mr. *Clap-Clap* N-G-O!: 07/01/2003

Thursday, July 31, 2003

Came back from logics just now, it actually was quite interesting with the whole "I'm not a plain M&M, but a milk chocolate M&M," and how advertisers use this strategy to entice the consumer that it's not all that bad it's just somewhat positive in a way. From psychology class today, I learned that I'm pretty stressful person...

I think I only got five hours of sleep last night, so I was just trying to stay awake in sociology. But, the day wasn't all that bad. Stephanie's friend Grace needed help with her economics final. She treated me with a luncheon at BJ's. I think it was my second time going to a BJ chain, the last one was down at San Diego. But, it felt more like a date of sorts because throughout the whole time, we were just talking about stuff, ourselves, and everything nonrelating to economics and it was just the two of us. She's totally into the zodiac and probably she wants to find out everything about me so that she could interpret like everything that will go on in my life in the future through the zodiac interpretation. She's really nice though and she had a great smelling perfume that stayed on my shirt as we speak. Interesting aspect...

Wednesday, July 30, 2003

The time in Logics have gone progressively worser and worser...it's one class I will definitely not miss after it all. I was in sociology class and it hit me that I had a top priority spots for registering for fall classes. It began at 7:00 am, and I was lke, oh shit! So, I had to skip psychology to head on home to register for them because if I wait longer, then more and more people will get the classes and times that I want. It turned out ok, except that I have to do a biology lab which I won't get any credit for. But, I won't get a grade in the class and I'm taking on 4 classes so that's already a full load there. But, right now, I'm just a little droopy and need sleep somewhere. But, I got to catch up on sociology so that's my priorities of the day.

Tuesday, July 29, 2003

I missed a day of updating, I know. Public flogging now...

Sunday, Allen came over to bail me out of the house. I haven't seen him in a very long period again mainly because he had a new obsession that he was going to take me over today. It was not another motocycle shop, but Electric Ave. If you guys have not heard of the place, Electric Avenue is both an arcade/computer playing area. All the computers are hooked up to T1 connections and you can play favorite titles such as Counterstrike, WarCraft, StarCraft, and I don't know the rest, but you get a headset and microphone and you can communicate with other players on the internet while shooting the brains out of each other. I think I'll get obsessed over that place, probably Cindy as well because it has two DDR stations. Electric Ave. has done its homework on bringing the most popular titles there. It was my first experience at Counterstrike and beginners get whooped at that game. But, a good thing is that if you paid for the hour and you haven't used it up in that session, then it transfers over to the next time you're there. So, I had 10 minutes left in my account and I'll be heading back there sometime soon. Allen and I went there to wait an hour before heading to Century 16 to watch Tomb Raider 2. That movie was...errrr alright. The concept of the movie was there, it's just that how they went about it was a little bit ugly. But, Angelina Jolie...that's the reason why we wanted to see that movie. Very nice, very nice...

Moving right along...

Monday, I had to get up at 4 in the morning so that our parents would drive up to Cal Poly to make the advising session at 8:00 am. It wasn't a bad drive. Because of that, we got there at 7:00 am. It was just freezing cold and a little bit of my car sickness didn't help things. They got there early because the car needed a tire fixed from running over a nail and we've been driving on a spare one at the beginning of the drive. By the way, there was a pretty spectacular drunk driving accident on the way there. That was such a nice truck...So we waited around at the patio of the theatre area at Cal Poly and saw the people that had the same or similar majors as me. The people I saw can be summed up into six words: lots and lots of white girls. So throuhout the day, I was bitting my knuckles a lot. In the scavenger hunt, there was this one girl, Emily, who whenever she looked down and closed her eyes, she looked exactly like Kimiko Ninomiya. It just tripped me out for an hour and a half. After that, I didn't know where my parents were at, so I explored around the campus and below from the main level of the University Union was a Billiards Arcade without the boba. I bet Cindy already discovered that place. With the whole advising program, I really liked what Cal Poly has to offer and I have to try my hardest to meet my parents expectations because I really want to stay there.

Today, it's back to normal school stuff with night class coming up. (sigh...)

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Sunday, July 27, 2003

The guestbook was setup by accident when I was trying to setup Tara's. I'll do Tara's right now then. But, (smiling) please sign mine! You can put down whatever you want, just don't be hatin'...

Saturday, July 26, 2003

Man, I needed to install rear view mirrors on the lawn mower today. Whenever I was backing up, I always run into something. First, I backed into the edger. Pissed me off. Next, I backed into the green waste garbage can. I got mad. Finally, when I was backing onto the sidewalk, I ran into a group of people that were walking on the sidewalk. I felt embarrased, but I thought that was funny. Casualty of the day, something sharp on the lawn mower gave me a mean scratch on my right arm and our house was down to the last band-aid. The band-aid didn't stay on, so it pissed me off even further. With all these accidents, I was glad I wasn't driving anywhere today...

Alright...alright...I didn't update yesterday. So, you guys can lay the smackdown on me later on tonight or whenever....

We'll go back to after the Logics midterm shall we. I got done at 8:30 pm and I was thinking, "Yes! I can go and catch up on my sociology work and do a bunch of other stuff tonight." But, my sister followed behind me and told me not to go home tonight until 10:00 so that she can go to her friend's house. Ok, I wasn't planning that into my schedual and I didn't bring any money to go play at Billiards or go somewhere to buy stuff. So, during my drive, I was contemplating what to do for an hour. I don't know, but Lladira seemed to just be on my mind as the best logical choice to go to. But, I was thinking about that a lot, even at the front of her house. I mean ok, it was 8:45 when I got there so I don't know her family late night policies, and for a me to ask to stay there until around 10:00 is a little bit odd. But, I was desperate, and I was fortunate to get Lladira answering the door. Her whole family was very nice to me. Maybe because I have restrictive parents that I would think the worst thing that can happen. But, Lladira and I spent the hour with her discussing about everything on her European trip. Also, I got to see a lot of stuff instore for the future. Her dog almost bit me when I was petting the dog for a few seconds. But, it was the first time that a saw Lladira live and in person since probably Borneman's class on the last day of school, so it was awesome. Hearing Lladira's more juicy details about the trip was pretty cool. She's a hardcore pimpette! lol...she gave me a keychain souvenier from the Vatican and a stick of Itlalian gum when I left.

Wednesday, (sigh...) I don't know what even happened on that day. Did I get wasted? No...I was just busy with homework and all that it probably numbed my mind to forget that day. Oh yeah, the best part of the day was when we watched Analyze This in psychology that day. It was about this psychologist trying to help the state of mind of the leader of the New York mafia. That's where in one entry of randomly shooting in the air, yeah, there's a lot of guns in the movie. It's so hilarious though. I got to see it again. But, yeah, there was a lot of homework to do that night.

Thursday, raise devil horns in the air! I only missed 3 problems of 75 on the logics midterm which I have like a 96% in the class so I got to get a 84% on the final to get an A in the class. Two more weeks before summer classes are over.

Friday, I look on AIM screen and saw Lladira's away message about the short flags banquet and stuff. I wanted to go, but had no idea where it was at. So, during the middle of lunch, I get a phone call and it was Lladira herself. She asked me if she could use my truck to get tables and chairs (dang, no ladders...) as soon as possible because everyone was freaking out of there. (raising hands in air, surrendering) Hey, it was Lladira and she asked ever so nicely, so I trashed lunch and immediately headed over there. I was glad that I could be of service to Lladira and the short flags. Man, I spent so much time in my truck that I think the Evanescence Fallen CD played all 11 tracks 3 times over; mainly because of getting stuff with Lladira all over Oxnard, and trying to find Emil when Lladira asked me to bring Emil over to Cabrillo Park. So, I go over to Emil's house, only to find out that Emil is playing a Borneman game at OHS. I was surpised that there was a Borneman game going on that day, so I headed on over and Emil told me to comeback in an hour because they were in the middle of one game. So, I go back to Cabrillo Park and had food and watched the Short Flag performance. They rocked the house! Man, it was like an Asian convention over there! Emil pointed that out when I brought him to the park an hour later. It made Lladie happy. Both of us couldn't stay long, so I took Emil home and I went home to see that all the dishes were washed by my sister, surprisingly. It kind of assures me that she has my back, sort of. Night concludes with me helping out Tara with her blog. Can't wait to go with her to the Ventura County Fair when she comes back to Cali.

This morning, I had a short dream and in it I saw Cindy and I was doing horrible playing hide n' seek behind this tree where each branch as a good set of leaves in which you trim to make pods or something. But, anyway, I think I was just being silly and she was just smiling at me. Maybe it means that I will meet up with her at Cal Poly when I get there this Monday. I'm not really sure what I'll be doing most of the day today. Long entry, but it catches you up of what I've been up to.

Thursday, July 24, 2003

Don't really have the mind to update now. It's those times where you just want to pick up a gun and start shooting randomnly in the air. Influences on that thought later on. But, just wait until tomorrow...

Tuesday, July 22, 2003

Today was pretty disappointing. Stupid Mellinger, most of the class got back their assignments and said that two essays were missing and all. Everyone was checking to see what they were missing, but Mellinger doesn't have his stuff organize so I guess he's basing things off of who turned in more essays for that week and any extra essays that one has goes against all of us. Argh! So, tonight, I have to bust out in Sociology. But, tonight we have a mid-term in Logics so once we're done, we can jet out of there. So, tonight I got extra time and hopefully I can get things done before midnight. Right now, I'm worried about logics because I haven't really cracked opened the book until now and the test is in two and a half hours from now. Ahhh!!! Just wish me luck...

Monday, July 21, 2003

I come home, and I get this in my e-mail mailbox...

From antitroll2003@yahoo.com

HAMADA!

You're Invited!
to

THE WEDDING OF THE CENTURY

HEE! HEE! HEE!

WHERE: The Vatican.

WHO: ME and OLGA TROLLGA TROLLPANTS!

WHEN: April 14. (Hitler's Birthday, HEE! HEE! HEE!)

BEST MAN: Kathleen Turner.

MAID OF HONOR: Harvey Fierstien.

FLOWER WHORES: Niccolette Poopypants and Olgita.

Can you believe that an atheistic fake-Jewish troll and a christian would ever be wed?! Well, come on down and see it with your own eyes! The colors of the wedding are neon pink and diareah brown. Please dress accordingly. The Pope will be performing the ceremony, and don't forget your yamichas! (Mrs. Ward would be so proud of me right now... I hope she doesn't celebrate too much... poor little kitties...).

There will be an after-wedding Elbow Sex party. Please bring protection! We don't want any SARS spreading about (CINDY!!!). For a fee of $6 you can have some of my special "elbow" size condoms, they come in banana flavor! And Sara, SHOW ME THE TOOTH! ;)

Everyone come! Or I will eat Olga's goats!!!! HEE! HEE! HEE!

HAMADA!

P.S. Olga, just in case you didn't know, you are my wife! We can have endless elbow sex until the night ends! HEE! HEE! HEE! TROLLGA!!!!!!! Oh, and Bobby, thanks for that picture you drew of Meghan, it REALLY made my day! (And a few other people out there, I hope, ;))!

Ah man, I think this probably woke me up from almost falling asleep in class several times today. Nothing much going on, just going to wing it...

Saturday, July 19, 2003

Starfox0064x: alright, I'm trying to convince Lladie on that it's safe for me to go over to her house if I just stayed on the front lawn
Cwc986: what?? lol.....how does that work?
Starfox0064x: like I can't go inside her house when her mom's not around...
Starfox0064x: her mom's not around...
Cwc986: ahh, ic
Starfox0064x: so, I can't go inside
Cwc986: but if shes not home.....then shes not home to see...
Cwc986: hehe
Cwc986: sorry...thats just me being a bad thinker...
Starfox0064x: nah, that's good to the point when her mom comes home and I'm still there
Starfox0064x: that calls for running into the backyard and hoping some fences
Cwc986: ahh, yes
Cwc986: but im sure youre good at that ;-) hehe
Starfox0064x: :-[
Starfox0064x: I had a share of some close calls...
Cwc986: oh dear....lol
Starfox0064x: just got to prepare for those situations...
Starfox0064x: make sure you got some light shoes...
Cwc986: LoL
Cwc986: oh yeah
Starfox0064x: and well trained to undertake the tasks of plan B
Cwc986: which is.....?
Cwc986: facing the mom?
Cwc986: ahhh!
Starfox0064x: yeah, that's the part where you just act as if you've lost your mind
Starfox0064x: like, I got lost and found this house
Cwc986: LoL!
Cwc986: yeah.....i dont know your daughter at allll
Starfox0064x: yeah, then kind of sell the act by compulsing on the floor
Starfox0064x: bang your head against the wall a little bit
Starfox0064x: and then the mom says, "get outside!"
Cwc986: ouchies
Cwc986: hahahhaa
Starfox0064x: then you go, "ok..."
Starfox0064x: and walk away
Starfox0064x: yeah, that's plan B
Cwc986: haha.....i bet it would work.....well, hopefully
Starfox0064x: if that doesn't work, then there's plan C
Cwc986: hehe....and whats that?
Starfox0064x: plan C is inititated if the mom says, "you know...your not going to get away that easy..."
Starfox0064x: so mom sits me at the table
Starfox0064x: and then she starts asking questions
Cwc986: oooh dear......plan C=not good
Starfox0064x: and you try to be as honest as possible and making me sound like I have no intentions of the you-know-what with your daughter
Starfox0064x: that I'm just a good friend
Cwc986: lol!
Starfox0064x: to avoid all this, just stay at the front lawn
Cwc986: hahaha....yes, that is very logical

Starfox0064x: have you ever had some of those experiences?
Cwc986: nah....im very sneeky
Cwc986: i never get caughtO:-)
Cwc986: and besides....i have it easier cus im a chick
Cwc986: :-D
Starfox0064x: yeah, it's always the guys that get gunned down by the shotgun

My pickup line is:

What's your sign?

what's your pickup line?
| mewing.net. hey, baby.

Ah yes...it's a crime not updating for a day...you're not missing much anyway...

All this week, my sister just finds a way to get mad at me. It's when she's stressed out and stuff that she has to take it out on someone. I'm upstairs, she's downstairs...she calls me down, I have to do something for her...then starts having fits and stuff. She has fits, then she's all smiles around her friends and my parents and stuff...future husband, God bless your soul. But, Friday and today she's out all day, so I got some breathing room until the next wave approaches.

Danielle has me hooked on Crypt Raider. I'm stuck on level 83. Bastard mummies! I wonder where Danielle's at in the game...

Today, I had to take the EPT test at CSUCI. I hate reading comprehension...probably did horribly in that section. But best part about that time: freeway driving. I saw Mauricio at CSUCI. He was my classmate in IMP 4 H. He was probably just mind numbed after the test as I was.

Lladira said that she had something for me from Europe...I think I'm due for a bike trip! :-D

Thursday, July 17, 2003

Sleepy tonight, don't really have the power to type...

Wednesday, July 16, 2003

Hell yeah! I'm done with my sociology papers! Now I can pretty much relax and dance through the morning and night classes...

Oh yeah...

"Don't let school get in the way of your education" - Dr. Horrick

"What can you do to prevent someone from commiting suicide?" -Dr. Pugh
"You take them to Rhinos..." -Me, in my head.

I was watching 8MM today, pretty interesting movie. I think I'm off to bed, see ya....

Very good, Cindy! You got the logics problems all right. E-mail me the answers and I'll say if you got them all right. Cindy, don't tell anybody else the answers!

Man, I feel so ummotivated on doing my sociology right now...Maybe I should talk about things that happened...
I got my AP scores back...(sigh...) I'm just bitter...man, I thought I had subjects in the bag...but, it was not to be...

Yeah, tough week...

Probably from the entry below, you know what's up...

Yeah, tough week...but, it might get softer, or harder...

I'm glad that the rose survived and Lladira's really happy about it. Did she get the card also? Hopefully that didn't blow away. I can't wait to meet up with her sometime. Maybe this weekend, how about it? But, the harder factor in the week is that I might be putting something extra that goes with three classes already. (slams face on keyboard) I'm just insane I guess. Got to get through tonight and tomorrow then I'm free for the weekend! Yay!

Some ups and downs in the day. I think I got 100 pts. in psychology so I don't have to take the midterm tomorrow. But, I've invested a lot of time in that class that the essays and reports for sociology has piled up. I think I got nine pages worth of writing assignments due tomorrow. Ahhh! Another up is that I think Tara's party is today, so I guess I could relax a little bit before hitting the books. But, I'm not sure when the party starts...Ummm...maybe I should call...that's always a good thing...

Tuesday, July 15, 2003

Tony died yesterday morning. Only until right now I was able to get online to tell you guys about it. My aunt called my mom around six to tell about what had happened. It's been a tough week to say the least...I mean, it's just going to be weird when we have the cousins hang out and he's not there to make us laugh and all. Whenever there's a family party, he's there. I'm just confused because in a month, my cousin Long and his wife Jennifer will be expecting a child. It just seems like one things happening after another and everythings happening way all of the sudden and I'm just pondering over it all. I just don't know what else to say. We'll definitely miss Tony. Tony's always been representing, he had an awesome sense of humor and he's been a great family member, may he rest in peace...

Sunday, July 13, 2003

Alright, need to catch up on psychology. I don't want to take a mid-term in that class, so I need to bag in 100 points of outside work until Wednesday. I have around 20-30 points right now...damn. I just done my paper on the presentations on Thursday, so that's around 10 points, I need to do my Dream Journal, and it should bag at least 10 points or more. So, it'll get me to 50 points which I still need to take the midterm. I just need to do a summary on 5 chapters from the book, then I'll get a day off on Thursday. I can do it...

Saturday, July 12, 2003

Damn psychology...

morally deficient
Threat rating: Medium. Your total lack of decent
family values makes you dangerous, but we can
count on some right wing nutter blowing you up
if you become too high profile.

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You know, until today, I never knew how big my family was until we all realized how many birthday parties that we've been to halfway through the year. A lot of my family are just tired going to endless of birthday parties with little kids running around all day and doing high rolling gambling. But, Jenny's party was different because they had a jolly jump. All my baby cousins dragged me into there and pretty soon it was a four on one sneak attack. They all tried to beat me up and pin me down. I felt bad that when I fell forward I guess, my foot came around and hit my cousin Jackie in the nose. I didn't think it was all that serious, but Jackie try to shake it off and rub her nose that it started bleeding. I was like, "Oh no!" and we got her inside and cleaned her off and everything. But, she's one tough cookie. During the party, Amy gave my sister and I word that Tony is in the hospital and it doesn't look good. The doctors say that he's not going to make it this time around. I never had anybody close just...facing with death and all. It's just undescribable here...

Oh yeah, I wanted to see how you guys were doing on the logics. Leave your four response letters in the shoutout box. (i.e. Chris - a, b, c, d)

Nothing much going on here, time to share some logics with you guys...

Circumstances:

A child is stringing 11 different colored beads on a string.
Of the 11, four are yellow, three are red, two are blue, and two are green.
The red beads are adjacent (that is, next) to one another.
The blue beads are adjacent to one another.
The green beads are not adjacent to one another.
A red bead is at one end of the string and a green bead is at the other.

Questions:

#1. If the sixth and seventh beads are blue and the tenth bead is red, which of the following must be true?

a. The second bead is green
b. The fifth bead is yellow
c. The eighth bead is green
d. A green bead is next to a yellow bead
e. A blue bead is next to a green bead.

#2. If the four yellow beads are next to each other, and if the tenth bead is yellow, which of the following beads must be blue?

a. the fourth
b. the fifth
c. the sixth
d. the seventh
e. the eighth

#3. if each blue bead is next to a green bead, and if the four yellow beads are next to each other, then which of the following beads must be yellow?

I. the fourth
II. the fifth
III. the sixth
IV. the seventh

a. I and II only
b. II and III only
c. III and IV only
d. I, II, and III
e. II, III, and IV

#4. If the fifth and sixth beads are blue and the ninth bead is red, which of the following must be true?

a. One of the green beads is next to a blue bead
b. One of the red beads is next to a green bead
c. Each yellow bead is next to at least one other yellow bead
d. The second bead is yellow
e. The eighth bead is yellow

A lot of beads, but pretty simple to do.

Friday, July 11, 2003

Today, Friday needed to count. This afternoon, I took Emil to the movies to meet up with Becky, Cindy, Cindy's sister, Bobby, and Willy. We watched Pirates of the Carribean, it was pretty good, I didn't think it was the best out there, but it was better than I expected. Oh yeah, we saw Borneman there, freaky. Afterwards, Emil came to the conclusion that movies out these days are either true stories, comics, disney stories, and sequels that has been already made and just produced on screen. Which is true because probably the most successful movies that haven't fallen in these categories would be Bruce Almighty and Italian Job. All the other movies made quick haste to Channel Island's Cinnemas. I forgot what Emil said to me about using movie theatres to take over the world or something. I'll ask him tonight about it. I think all you readers need to get your minds stimulated, so I'll post up some logics problems later on.

I'm tempted...

Oh yeah, it was fun racing my sister from VC to home. Of course I beat her...

Damn, that was the longest 4 hours in logics today. But, I'm free for this weekend. Midterms next week.

Thursday, July 10, 2003

Ah man, my neck is sore. Drving was horrible, I could move my head to look to the right to check to see if there were any cars there when I turn. My head is resting on a pillow right now, but my neck is like hitting a funny bone and I can't stop laughing when I feel the pain. Classes were not that bad, pretty typical. Glad thing that today is Thursday, got 6 hours to prepare for Logics now. That class is a joke, with Horrick at least. I feel screwed up right now, oh yeah, I'll try to fix the sound problem. You just need to click on the link in rder to open a webpage.

Wednesday, July 09, 2003

Completed tonight 9 pages worth of reports. Hang a right and hop to bed. Good night.

We watch "I am Sam" in Psychology today for the entire two hours there. Yeah! Better than the lectures. The movie was just a mixture of emotions just put together so beautifully. There's parts that you want to tear up, parts that makes you laugh, you got to see it. I think Jon Voight said it the best in Mission: Impossible, "There she was standing alone, alive and beautiful." It was different this time around, the sight seeming uplifted my spirits tremendously for some reason. It was just an awesome feeling. Tonight, homework, blah...Oh well, think Playstation 2 and break stuff...

Monday, July 07, 2003

Hmmm...it's like whenever you feel like you don't have the freedom to talk...it feels like you don't have the right to talk...

It's very frustrating when you have you're journal written fairly long, only for blogger to swallow it up and make it disappear when you go to publish it. Alright, long story short, Sunday, I helped my sister's friend Grace out with her macroeconomics, I hope she does well on her midterm. As a thank you, Grace took me to Jamba Juice, it was my first time there, and I had a delicious strawberry mix. Pretty much three good things happened that day. Today, Sociology was depressing and Psychology was typical yet informative. Just ask me about it. And here's Melanie:

Starfox0064x: I got to do something evil with my left over fireworks...
itsdaMELANIEum: uh like what
Starfox0064x: I don't know, I was hoping that you might have some ideas
itsdaMELANIEum: no im not crazy
Starfox0064x: you went to mexico, and that was crazy
itsdaMELANIEum: not really
Starfox0064x: you said it was
itsdaMELANIEum: well yeah everyone was crazy
itsdaMELANIEum: but not fireworks crazy
itsdaMELANIEum: i different kind of crazy
Starfox0064x: am I the only pyromaniac here?
itsdaMELANIEum: probably
Starfox0064x: give me a random word...
Starfox0064x: just any word
itsdaMELANIEum: why?
Starfox0064x: it'll stimulate my head...
Starfox0064x: with ideas...
itsdaMELANIEum: okay
itsdaMELANIEum: a word...
itsdaMELANIEum: fuck
Starfox0064x: psychology class was a few hours ago
Starfox0064x: that's enough sex thoughts in one day
Starfox0064x: another word, probably not a swear word...
itsdaMELANIEum: octopus
Starfox0064x: octupus has eight legs...
Starfox0064x: another creature with eight legs is a spider...
Starfox0064x: I don't really like spiders...
Starfox0064x: so the next time I see a spider
Starfox0064x: I'll perform some pyro experiments on it
itsdaMELANIEum: neat?
Starfox0064x: awesome
Starfox0064x: thanks for the idea
itsdaMELANIEum: your welcome
Starfox0064x: octupus, that's genius
itsdaMELANIEum: of course it is
Starfox0064x: you're the sweetest...
itsdaMELANIEum: okay...
Starfox0064x: you deserve to be called that
itsdaMELANIEum: for saying the word "octopus"?
Starfox0064x: yep

Saturday, July 05, 2003

"If you think blacks had it bad in America, Indians had it even worse. When's the last time you saw two Indians?" - Chris Rock

"Lying From You" by Linkin Park

When I pretend everything is what I want it to be
I look exactly like what you always wanted to see
When I pretend, I can’t forget about the criminal I am
Stealing second after second just cause I know I can but
I can’t pretend this is the way it’ll stay I’m just
(trying to bend the truth)
I can’t pretend I’m who you want me to be, so I’m

[Chorus]
(Lying my way from you)
No no turning back now
(I wanna be pushed aside so let me go)
No no turning back now
(Let me take back my life,I’d rather be all alone)
No turning back now
(Anywhere on my own cuz I can see)
No no turning back now
(The very worst part of you is me)

I remember what they taught to me
Remember condescending talk of who I ought to be
Remember listening to all of that and this again
So I pretended up a person who was fittin’ in
And now you think this person really is me and I’m
(Trying to bend the truth)
But the more I push the more I'm pulling away 'cuz I'm

[Chorus]
(Lying my way from you)
No no turning back now
(I wanna be pushed aside so let me go)
No no turning back now
(Let me take back my life I’d rather be all alone)
No turning back now
(Anywhere on my own cuz I can see)
No no turning back now
(The very worst part of you)
(The very worst part of you is ME)

This isn’t what I wanted to be, I never thought that what I said would
have you running from me
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This isn’t what I wanted to be, I never thought that what I said would
have you running from me
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This isn’t what I wanted to be, I never thought that what I said would
have you running from me
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This isn’t what I wanted to be, I never thought that what I said would
have you running from me
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[Chorus]
(You)
No turning back now
(I wanna be pushed aside so let me go)
No no turning back now
(Let me take back my life I’d rather be all alone)
No turning back now
(Anywhere on my own cuz I can see)
No no turning back now
(The very worst part of you)
(The very worst part of you is me)

It's like, whenever you're not busy and absolutely bored at home, no one is around to do stuff with. But, once you get busy, then everyone wants to go somewhere with you. However, it's never a bad thing. Yesterday was 4th of July so I was kind of asking people what they were going to do that day. Most of them said that they were going out earlier in the day or going out of town. Miriam talked to me to go over to her house to see if she was home if she was going to eat dinner with her parents at 7:30. But, she wasn't home, so I went next door and find Emil home. He wasn't planning to go anywhere, so I think he was surprised that I would pick him up to go to Fisherman's Wharf to see the show. So yeah, it was interesting to have a conversation about Tinkerbell's death would signal the down fall of Disneyland. The atmosphere of this year's 4th of July was a lot different than last year. Last year, when I heard a firework go off, I would say that it was a firework. This year, whenever a firework went off, I would think terrorist attack, gunfire, bombs and explosion. And when I was with Emil, that's what we talked about, war and terrorist attack happening all around the harbor area. The show was awesome, the fireworks exploded lower than last year, and a lot of new explosion techniques. After the show, Emil and I went to the park to set off some of m fireworks that I bought in Filmore. After a few fireworks, we began thinking of new ideas for the 3rd Crusades...
Today, I was home alone for most of the day until the afternoon where Cindy wanted to go to Century 16. Both Cindy and Brian were going to leave soon to go to summer school classes at their colleges, so it was fun to hang out with them. We got there at 1:30 and we bought tickets to see Terminator 3. The show didn't begin until 2:30, so we headed across the street and went to Toys 'R Us. I haven't been inside for ages. We were playing with the stuff animals and became attached to some of the dogs, fishes, giraffes, and snakes and stuff, but when we saw the videogaming center, we immediately headed over there. I don't know what Cindy and Brian were playing, but I was playing the MotoBike GP. It was pretty bad ass...I think I have a new infatuation for motocycles....damn you Allen! Speaking of Allen, when I came home, he was at his friends house and stopped by at my house with his friend's motoscoters or something. He said he was kind of stuck at Jessie's house for dinner so he needed to blow time when she was gone.

3rd Crusades are planning to take place during one Saturday in August. Give me a shoutout if you're interested.

Need sleep...

Friday, July 04, 2003

I had this dream one night, I think I need Danielle to interpret it when she comes back. Logics class a couple of hours ago was both I wanted to sleep through it and funny at the same time. My sister takes the same class as I do, and I'm pretty proud of this. I caught her farting in public! She was all trying to hide it, but I whisper, "I caught you!" My sister couldn't stop laughing and I just saw her laughing and I couldn't stop laughing. It was hard containning it. Then Professor Horrick was saying, "These two parts..." and he said the word part with the p sounding more with a "fff..." sound. Once I heard that, I blerted silently, "Fart..." That made my sister trying to contain herself. Stephanie pissed me off several times this week, so it was good payback. During break, I caught Ivan at the food stands and...dude...better watch out for him when he turns 18! He has potential to be a regular weekend customer at Spearmint's Rhinos! Someone got to calm him down! After class, I headed home and my sister ask me help on how to setup a program on her computer. After both instructing Grace on the setup and doing this one problem, she probably wants to obduct me and make me her brother. She could do that if she finds me in San Luis Obispo. This weekend, I have to tutor her in macroeconomcs, plus I got caught in a study group with these two old ladies in my class and my sister. Awesome, Miriam talked to me!

miriamSOONchoi: not sure, i'm going to the movies with friends at 1:30, and i think they want to stay out for the whole day
miriamSOONchoi: i don't know what we're going to do afterwards
Starfox0064x: oh
Starfox0064x: hmmm...
Starfox0064x: awww man, I wanted you to play with them explosions!
miriamSOONchoi: but my dad said he wanted me home for dinner, so i don't know.. if i can't convince my dad, i might be home
miriamSOONchoi: pshh are you trying to kill me, chris?
miriamSOONchoi: hehe just kidding
Starfox0064x: lol
Starfox0064x: no of course
Starfox0064x: not
miriamSOONchoi: sure sure
Starfox0064x: you're Miriam the Great!
miriamSOONchoi: :-D
Starfox0064x: you can't kill her!
Starfox0064x: it's wrong
Starfox0064x: in so many ways
Starfox0064x: that cannot be defined!
Starfox0064x: no mortal can
Starfox0064x: not even me!
miriamSOONchoi: oh stop

Haha! That's a great way to end the night! I wonder where's my sister's internet photo album. There's another funny picture of me...

Thursday, July 03, 2003

Haha! I remembered this day! Them Pics!

Oh yeah, I forgot. EEEEEEEE!!! Me with fireworks!!!! Uh oh! Oh man, you don't want to be around me on 4th of July!!!

In about an hour, I got to prepare to go back to VC again. Alright, two days ago, in psychology, we had an interesting conversation about these psychological true or false questions:

True or False, frequent masterbation causes bad to serious medical conditions.

Pugh: It's false. In fact, masterbation actually helps one relieve stress, anger, and anxiety built in oneself.

The class laughs and comments amongst each other.

Pugh: However, excessive masterbation could impede the time one has in accomplishing his or her everyday goals and objectives.

We all laughed and agreed to that statement.

Pugh: It's great that me talking about it gets the guys attentive and the girls eyes opened.

True or false. In an experiment, people would not attempt to shock a person at high amperage even though instructed to do so by the person in charge.

Pugh: That's false. In an experiment, they placed a person in a box that got questioned and everytime that person got the question wrong, another person controlling the electric shock would shock the person. They put some...(attempting to come up with an appropriate word for several moments)...dildo behind the box and act out getting the question wrong.

The class (laughing, especially the girls): Ooooooooohh!

Pugh (laughing): I just demonstrated the Freudian slip which we'll learn later on.

Yeah, each time the person in the box would get the question wrong, the controller would turn the amperage higher and the person in the box would scream louder and louder with each missed question. In many studies, people would continue to shock the person even though the knob was clearly labled at one point, "DANGER! Might cause a heartattack!" Two reasons, it is proctored by the authoritarian of the experiment, so they assume that the shocks are perfectly safe; and even good people have a bad side that would want to destroy another object or human being. As you can tell, Psychology is probably the most interesting of the three. But everyday, I don't know how the lecture gets to sexual orientation...

One thing that was pretty cool yesterday. We were doing interviews with several students around the class. Alexandra Eubanks....(biting knuckles)....haha! Nah, she's 19 but...yeah! She interviewed me and it was pretty cool. I love my psychology class!

Today was pretty much the same in both classes. Only I saw Cristina and Malou today. I don't know if they are read my blog, but (waving) hi Cristina and Malou!

Wednesday, July 02, 2003

I guess it's time to update. I know, I promised that I would do an elaborate update about yesterday today...(sobbing) but, I'm so sleepy! I didn't know taking 9 units during summer was considered a full load! Alright, one more day before Friday and Saturday and Sunday is off for me. Man, freakin' neighbors exploded some big ass fireworks that scared the begizers out of me! It's payback now! Lladie is going to Europe..(sobbing)...I'm going to miss you! Have fun and tell me about it when you get back! I love you!!!

Tuesday, July 01, 2003

...zzz...zzz...zzz...(mumbling)...talk about...today...tomorrow....

Starfox0064x: just completed my 3rd class that lasts from 6:00 to 10:00
Starfox0064x: came home and ready to go to bed now
Starfox0064x: to start over and wake up at 6 tomorrow
sheenyi85: aww
sheenyi85: poor chris
Starfox0064x: yep
sheenyi85: on another suiside mission?

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